Hi I’m Marcia and I’ve struggled to have faith throughout my life. What can I say? I’m an expert in being fearful. I guess we can briefly go back to my origins. Every sad chapter always seems to revolve around our parents, doesn’t it? Well, at least mine did. Spending my early childhood years, watching my father abuse my mother wasn’t the type of love story I cared to be introduced to nor did it help with my future relationships. Each season thereafter came with it’s own setbacks and disappointments and looking back, I wish I could say I adopted a strong sense of faith. But with every life blow, whether it was losing a family member, job loss or breakups, it always felt like my avatar was placed back at the starting point on the field of faith.
The concept of faith has always been abstract to me. You can’t readily identify it with the natural eye nor can you define it without practicing it first. No one ever tells you to have faith when your bills are paid, you’re debt free or just blissfully happy. People always mention faith during hardships and it can be a valued companion when we have hopeful that our situation can change. But how do we activate faith when we are not hopeful? How do we have faith when we live in fear? I’ve pondered this question for many years as I feared the unknown. Feared what others thought of me. Feared death, success, failure…the list goes on. Nowadays, there’s an endless supply of reasons to be fearful.
Fear can be a monster, if you let it run on auto pilot for many years like I did. It can paralyze you into believing your circumstance won’t change and that you won’t make a difference which is the biggest lie of all. Faith on Training Wheels is a concept I initially created to depict my level of faith. I was always a couple of decisions away from trusting God completely- hence the training wheels. And if you think I’ve figured it out and learned how to trust him with every part of my life, sorry! I’m still growing, but what I intend to share is the concepts and tools I’ve learned to be a little fearless everyday. As I embark on this journey, please know I am infusing God in my message every step of the way. And if what you read here-moves you, awesome! I hope it kindles a fire within you to start or deepen your relationship with God. So whether you are here to stay or just passing through, welcome!